Lost in Dubai

need

2008-06-07T04:19:00.002+04:00

i've been away for a while now, well... long time actually
almost a year or so, i missed it here
been a really crappy year for me... but now here i am..
LOST more than i ever was

Need....

"the greatest thing u'll ever knew, is to love and be loved in return..."

that's sure, but what is that special need for that person..
what make him/ her so different or special??
god knows I have my friends, i know they love me so,and god knows how much i love them "let's hope that they just don't know how much i do" :P

i'm fine and the day comes and goes normally, i'm having my good and bad days, at work my career steps are going on or off, all depends.
then that someone shows in the picture..and suddenly everything just revolves around him/ her

i don't know anything about that someone, except the amazing smile and lovely conversations we had..
what makes me in need to be around that someone so much? i had this before, and everytime the same mistake. i go standing in front of the mirror and *slap* "don' do this to ur self", *another slap*" u've been there before and u've learned, it's time to be control it"

i became stronger and more in control.. but i just can't help being in need, for this thing, for that special acceptence, special approval from that person

i could live alone right now, just promise me that i'll be all alone
that no one special will pass my way and just ignore me being there, waiting...
what is it that makes all human so weak about this,what makes that person so ignorant to what happening in front of the eyes of his,
what makes it so hard for me to understand that "it just not that into me"

FUCK THE NEED.......

Bay's formeres

2007-07-05T13:49:00.000+04:00

finally!! after 2 years of waiting, Michael Bay is back!!
for those who don't know him, he's the guy who directed Bad Boys I&II, Armageddon, Pearl Harbor, the Island, and the Rock
and he just released his latest movie Tranformers.

Transformers box art by ~mmatere on deviant ART

yes i went there yesterday, and yes i watched the midnight show _even i didn't sleep for more than 3 hours in the previous day_ but he's Bay for CRYING OUT LOUD!!!
for some reason all the critics were against him or didn't like him,and also considerd him as one the worst directors in the american history!!! >:0
i just can't understand the critics sometimes, for me he's one of my fav. directors in all times
he has his own style and the action sequence in his movies are just outstanding, he gives the environment and the soundtrack a big share in his movies, not to mention the slow motion which is a trade mark of his.
i don't c that as a bad thing, considering what he's trying to deliver (a good summertime movie)
i don't need to compare him to Clint Eastwood or Alejandro González Iñárritu ( i love both of them :)) or who ever is out there. the guy have his own style and it's up to you to enjoy his movies or not, no need for set up rules on how to write, produce and direct a movie.

Transformers movie cover 1 by ~kieranoats on deviant ART

However, back to the Transformers:
well it was a disappointment :(
i didn't expect that from Michael (as if he's my friend :P), to be honest the visual effect were a piece of art, there was some mistakes here and there, but who wouldn't?!!
but acting wise!! i was like "okaaaay, it will get better soon" but it never happened!!
i like Shia Lebeouf (even almost everyone don't) , and Megan Fox have the most beautiful eyes ever, but both of them needs some serious acting lessons
while i was watching i was wondering why Bay didn't focus much on the acting, there was some comedy performance but in allot of the scenes ended up being silly and not in their places.
a critic from Los Angeles Times said about the movie:
"… though he has a way with CGI toys and action set pieces, director Bay does not have a noticeable gift for making human beings come to life."
too shame but this what the truth, somewhere in the end i lost my interests in the movie and i just wanted it to end
the action was at the top, but i had enough with it by then maybe i was so sleepy!! i don't know
but i was looking for something more than that from Michael Bay
of course it's only my opinion, ppl have different points of views and i respect everybody, except the ones who says that Batman & Robin is a good movie :P

I NEED HELP!!!

2007-06-27T15:54:00.000+04:00

NOOO!! I'm not crazy or addicted to anything!! OMG ppl get a life :P
seriously, lately i changed my work place to the Knowledge Village in Dubai
but I'm Still leaving in Deira, and since i don't have driving license yet, I had to use a car left
which means that it takes me 4 hours daily to reach home after I finish work!!!
I'm trying to find a suitable room to share it with my friend in Barsha or Jumeira, with a Padget of DHS 5000
yes i did look in the newspaper, actually i ate the whole newspaper but nothing
and i looked in almost every website that offers any kind of sharing accommodation in Dubai
i have about 3 days left to move, and nothing yet
and now I need someone who could know someone, and that other someone knows another who could help me here
looking for some replies plzzzzzzzzzz

broken vow

2007-06-21T11:09:00.000+04:00

Performer: "my" Lara Fabian :p

one of my all time favourites
i couldn't find a better clip, and the live version wasn't that good
but hope you enjoy the music, the voice, and the lyrics like i did

Tell me her name

I want to know

The way she looks

And where you go

I need to see her face

I need to understand

Why you and I came to an end

Tell me again

I want to hear

Who broke my faith in all these years

Who lays with you at night

When Im here all alone

Remembering when I was your own

l let you go

l let you fly

Why do I keep on asking why

l let you go

Now that I found

A way to keep somehow

More than a broken vow

Tell me the words I never said

Show me the tears you never shed

Give me the touch

That one you promised to be mine

Or has it vanished for all time

Chorus

I close my eyes

And dream of you and i

And then I realize

There's more to life than only bitterness and lies

I close my eyes

Id give away my soul

To hold you once again

And never let this promise end

Chorus

another sequel

2007-06-13T10:15:00.000+04:00

Hey...
God I miss being here
I went through some crazy life style lately; I'll be talking about it later
But for now I’ll talk a little bit about SAW IV (as you can see from the poster above)
Yes, it is another sequel, and people all ready knew about it
But the question here is WHY?!!! Why are they doing it??
The first 2 movies was just FANTASTIC, the third one was mmmmmm not so much!!!
It contained too much drama and too many spoilers even for the first two, and I didn’t like that. What was good about the first 2 was the mysteries and the puzzles, there were allot of thing left with out any explanation and I was fine with that, this how it should be played
To be fair enough I think It was good as a movie of its own, but not as a sequel!!
Any way I don't want to judge SAW IV before I see it, but for some reason I can’t remove Basic Instinct 2(the worst sequel ever) image from my head!!

3D i Media

2007-05-20T13:17:00.000+04:00

This post it not about publicity or advertising for anyone or anything
It’s about something got my attention for the whole day few days ago, and it’s very rare to happen ;)

While I was coming to work I found at the reception a magazine called T3 MIDDLE EAST it’s a gadget magazine with all the electronic thingy going on in it
The new thing was a new print with it called (3D i Media) which is a trademark of Mission 3-D Publishing Ltd.
Simply it was a 3D advertising magazine!!! And you can realize the 3rd dimension by using special glasses (Photo 3-D Paper Glasses).
I saw this technology last year in IMAX when I saw Superman Returns and I was fascinated by it (the 3D thing not the movie cuz it sucked!!!)

I’ll share some of the information I read in the magazine about how those ppl get here and about their techniques, hope they are ok with this otherwise I’m in deep @#$! ;p

The marketing concept is focusing on the idea of any magazine subject featured in 3D or any brand advertised in 3D will have a considerably more powerful impact than a 2D version (like in the adds we sea everywhere).
Critics are comparing this to the times when the first colored TV came out!!!
Now after 5 years of research, development and over 2 million $ invested; Mission3-D Publishing Ltd. Announced the introduction of a new, exciting communications medium that is set to increase the effectiveness of advertising in print by as much as 75 times!!!
And that all based on scientifically proven theories, also they have concluded that a photo 3-D ad visual was eight times more memorable than a normal 2 dimensional visual,
This means that photo3-D viewing is active and experiential when compared to its static 2 dimensional counterparts.

One of the questions that been asked about this new technology was "are people willing to put on Photo3-D glasses?" _Since the glasses provide amazing advantages with less coast to enjoy this view _

- well studies has shown the people have little problem wearing photo3-D glasses with 100% of children, young adult, and senior citizens willing to do so. A less than 30% resistance exists among those between 40-50.

I could go on and on about this amazing new technology and how revolutionary it is
at least as I see it!!
And for those who didn’t understand anything of what I was talking about (cuz I didn’t myself ;p) they can just go and check
www.3-dimedia.com

p.s. again almost all the information in here was taken from the magazine it self.

another day at the White House

2007-05-12T00:25:00.000+04:00

I found this in a web site called www.funboosh.com
The clip is really funny, hope everyone enjoy it ;p

struggling with diet!!

2007-05-05T17:54:00.000+04:00

Hi all
It toke me a while to write this post, I was a little busy lately; with all the birthday planning and everything…
Oops, I forget to tell u, it was my birthday last week so “happy birthday to me from all of u!!” ;p

Now about the weird title “struggling with diet”
I wanted to choose the word “weight” instate of “diet” then I thought that it’s a common word
And everybody is struggling with weight.
In my case here the weight wasn’t the problem, I didn’t find it that bad to gain some weight _allot actually ;p_
The problem was with loosing it!!

The story started when I moved to Dubai almost 2 years ago, back then I rarely went out during the week, cuz of the whole busy life thing in Dubai, anyway I started entertaining my self with all kind of food and sweets. The frame “wine testing” somehow turned into “chocolate testing”!!!
Days and months has passed and I was luxuring my self with all kind of food and anything eatable! And these turned out to be my new habit.

Friends and family of course started commenting on the look and how I should watch my self and “you still young and handsome, watch your self and be careful on what your eating!!”
Well who cares?!!! I’m happy, I’m eating my burger and pizza and that’s what important
I’m not gonna turn into my own shrink now but I looked at food as a way to west time, and allot of it actually
By time getting weight started to effect my look and personality as well.
I had to stay hours in front of the mirror to find something that fit, or at least makes me look ok, not to mention the anger that started pupping up in the air.
And that’s lead to more food, telling my self “what the hell, no way I’m gonna loose all that”

(((I received a ring on my birthday about 4 or 5 years ago, and it was in my finger since then. Never tried to remove it and I started to think its part of me)))

TILL ONE DAY
I tried to remove that ring, and it stock. I tried Olive oil, soap and every possible way but no luck, my fingers now are too big, and it stocked there
In that day and for the first time since almost 1 year I cried, I felt like a prisoner to this thing (the weight not the ring!!)
It was kind of a wake up call for me
And I answered!!
The next day I went to a gym next to my house and registered. Started a new diet system and a whole new way of living just started
I admit it’s very hard thing to do, especially in the first few day, seeing all the food and chocolate around you and just ignore it; it’s hard, it’s so freaking hard!!!
Later on I started feeling some changes. Not in my body of course cuz at least I need a century to get off all that weight!!! ;) It was more in my inner self
I started to feel better about my self, feel happier, fresher, I had a goal in mind and I wanted to reach
And let’s face it the reason was so simple and honest
Loose my weight is much cheaper than buying a whole bunch of new clothes that fits :)
And that’s what really happened, now I could really c the result, it’s not very clear, but comparing to what I used to be it’s much better, and my old cloths fits again, so all I need is some extra time and some “struggling with diet”.

In the last week I didn’t stick to the rules that much cuz of my birthday thing and I was thinking that I deserve all that pizzas, burgers and ice cream cakes after all what I’ve been through in the last 2 months :p

Anyway starting today I’m back to my diets and workouts, so the struggling….mmmm
You know what?? Struggling is not the right word
I’ll go with the “system”, it looks better ;)
I guess that’s it for this time, wish me luck in this little adventure
And looking for ur review, ideas, and personal experience

BTW I went to Spiderman 3 yesterday and the movie was just AMAZING!!!You can watch the trailer here:

Lost ... Episode 2: keeping a distance

2007-04-03T02:16:00.000+04:00

Previously on "LOST":
For those who didn’t read the first “Lost” post, I was talking about the different ways to get lost, and I would recommend that you go back and read it before starting with this post. ;)

As I mentioned before I will start using the “I” letter as I’m talking about a personal experience or a personal point of view if I might say.

I had to deal with the fact that I’ve been away from my family and friends, and to be honest it wasn’t an easy thing to do, then the days went by and somehow I managed to put my feeling behind me and look forward.
After 2 years in Abu Dhabi, the company I used to work with decided to transform me to Dubai.
Back then I was so glad with the idea, because it was a reaction for some circumstances, and chance for me to see the real Dubai, not only the malls and the long towers.

Didn’t really thought of being in Dubai alone till after I moved there; I looked around me and I knew that this time I’ll be on my own, I have allot of friends in Dubai to be honest.
But my ideas, my thought, my acts and reacts all changed since I came.
I’m a different person for them now.
They were used to the fragile and the sweet version of me, I’m not a monster now though; just a different person.

The days went by and the distance kept growing between me and the other guys, they are great I have to admit, it’s just me who’s keeping the distance.
it was hard to trust my ideas with them, they didn’t like my opinions and that was up to them
I wasn’t always right, but I choose what I want, and decide what I feel ok with.
Time by time I start fading in front of them and in front of me.

Now Living in Dubai gives the chance to meet new people every day, for sure this thing gives you the chance to share your ideas and thoughts with them
But there was always a distance, I just couldn’t let anyone that close. At least emotionally!!
In some way managed to stay alone, in the land of far far away …
Later on; the way Dubai keeps everyone busy played a big part in this, and with the time passing by; the meetings became calls, the calls became sms, then nothing!! Just nothing!!
What more left to say?
I simply didn’t care, or I didn’t realize that I didn’t care. (Too many didn’t!! ;p)
I was like “whateverrrrr”

Now I’m writing those words; thinking to my self “why am I doing this?” _the writing I mean_
I know that it’s a wrong way to live; it’s a wrong way to deal with people, but it’s just how I feel
Or how I don’t feel!!
I’m lost in my journey, I’m away from the right road, and I’m taking a wrong turn.
I need to someone to guide me, someone to lead me to the right way
But where is that someone, “heeeeeyyyyyy, can you hear meeee?!!! I need you”

The end of this part of LOST
don’t know if the series will continue, I have some ideas, but I want it to be cooked very carefully before I put out there.
Looking for comments and ideas.
C ya

HURT

2007-03-31T12:26:00.000+04:00

ME ft. SHAKIRA: LIVE on Friday 23rd!!! :-D

2007-03-21T21:21:00.000+04:00

hey again
till i post episode 2...from LOST (which i guess nobody's watchin!!!)
I'll leave u with a funny version of Shakira's Clip "Hips don't lie"
Oops.... i forget to tell u...
i'm going to her concert on Friday, March 23rd!!!

Lost... Episode 1

2007-03-17T16:56:00.000+04:00

No, I’m not talking about the TV series here; but I got some inspiration _to write those lines_ from it though!
U don’t have to get ur plane crashed on a remote island to be officially LOST!!
Just prepare ur suitcase with some old clothes, get a plane ticket, say goodbye to friends and family _with the promise that u’ll never forget them no matter what_ and simply: LEAVE!!!

Here comes the story of u coming to the UAE; u’ll love the country to be honest, every thing here is nice(except the weather in the summer time for sure), the streets, the towers, the malls, the movie theatres _my personal favorite_, the culture, the all kind of people u'll run into everyday, the new experience u'll gain each simple minute.
But then where that leaves u at the end of the day?

The first few months here; u’ll think like it’s the end of the world for u, “how would I survive?” “Will I find a good job?” “are they gonna think I’m good?” “What my friends back home doing now? Are they missing me?”
Of course days comes by, turning to weeks, which turns to months, then the time comes for ur first flight back home…. “yepoooooooooooo”

but If u ever thought that people where setting back home doing nothing but waiting for u to come back; well let me bring u the news: “NO, THEY R NOT”!!!
Each one has his own life now, u’ll have to face it, everyone has moved on. they'll welcome and great u they first couple of days, or let's give it a week, then....that's it
U’ll cry in the first few days; then…. U’ll move on too
U’ll fix up ur make up _if u r a girl of course_ and move on!!
No time to look back, not time to cry, and "the show must go on"!!!

U’ll keep loving them as always and they will too, but there’s just no time enough to all the drama about “can’t go on with out u” thing…
After a while u’ll reach a point when u’ll have to choose between living ur past or start looking at your future..

Most properly u’ll decide to step ahead leaving ur past behind, or in another word: “not letting it standing in the way”
U’ll start experiencing new things, new idea, new lifestyle, and a new way of seeing people around u and reacting to them.
mmmm...
I think I should stop using the “U” letter now, and start using the “I” one.
But till then I’ll stop for a little time just to add some suspense to the post. ;p
Again there are so many ways to get LOST and here: "I’m talking about mine".

To Be Continued…

I WON. I WON!!!!!

2007-03-06T11:23:00.000+04:00

I never been friend with luck; or I think it never been friend with me!!
I tried and tried to c what it’s interested in so may I could get its attention….
Well it worked for a few times!!
Back when I was a kid I won 5 Syrian pounds (less than half dhs) in (Al Helween – or the good-looking ones {in English}) biscuits!!! That was during my childhood years.
When I came to UAE in 2003; and during the first month I really had nothing to do but watching movies & TV shows, one day I participated in TV show called Cinemania; and surprisingly I won!
I guess this should be good luck right???
Well the week before I participated the winner had a (Gladiator) (Minority Report) DVDs, and 2 tickets to a movie premiere, at my turn I won a Hallmark movie _for kids_ called (Jack and the Beanstalk: The Real Story)!!! I didn’t watch it tell now and I don’t think that I’m going to…
After 6 months I entered another competition and won; back then I was in Abu Dhabi – UAE. And the price was 2 ticket to a movie premiere called (Elektra) in Dubai;
The movie sucked I know, but its fine to win things, plus i LOVEE Jennifer Garner
But the smart people at the competition company _who ever it was_ called me 2 hours before the movie starts, I was in Abu Dhabi (at work), the premier was in Dubai; and I need minimum 2 hours to get there. So I just apologized and thanked them for considering me…blah blah.
Later on I kept participating and entering competition here and there; but my luck decided to turn his back to me. Well I didn’t expect much to be honest, or I just wanted the big thing (a million $ would be fine I guess)
Any way just 2 days ago someone from Grand cinema (a film distributor in Dubai) called me and tolled me that I won the (Dream Girls) competition
I was like ‘WAAAAAAAAAW”, the lady on the phone laughed and said “sir, u can come and collect your price anytime between 10am – 12 midnight”
And so I did yesterday…. I went there and toke the price, and here the list of what I’ve won:
· Dream Girls Novel.
· Beyonce new album.
· A woman T Shirt and purse!!!
Ok… I know
What the hell should I do with a woman T shirt and a purse?!!!
The T shirt has those little fake diamonds all over it and the purse is all silver!!
I imagined my self wearing them!!! Or let’s say….I just need to find my self a girlfriend and give her those things….I should be happy, right? I won after all…:)

a new HABIT...

2007-03-04T07:56:00.000+04:00

Hey Again...

i just wanted to say it again... I've started a new habit lately, which is taking photos and editing them

I'm not sure of the result yet or will i continue or not.... i think I'm just gonna wait and c how people will respond to this new thing

hope u all go and check this link: "http://screamonly.deviantart.com/"

I'm looking for ur reviews, but be easy on me ;)

Where do we go from here?

2007-03-01T09:16:00.000+04:00

Hey everyone…
This is me…again!!!
Long time? Well I guess I’m kind of slow ;)
Anyway….take a look at the attached image; for sure the design wasn’t suppose to end up like this; I started creating it with the concept of “A New Chapter” , then after 3 hours of working, my PC went crazy and I had to restart!! Oh... btw I didn’t save any of my work!!
I guess I was so crazy about the design that I forgot that the pc is a machine after all; I think it wasn’t so excited about what I was doing!! L
After I cried a river over it, I moved on and started creating the new one, but now a new image started popping up in my head
I know that everyone wants a new start… but what next?!
U go to bed every night reliving what happened during the day, some r happy of what they did, and some r not.
For those who didn’t like it, didn’t feel it, and doesn’t wanna live it again…
U look in the mirror and think: “today was bad! I was bad! This should be the end, and tmrw is a new beginning!!”
This is the right thing to do, _I guess_ but what next?
Is tmrw really gonna be a new day? Will u feel better? Is it really a new beginning? Or is it just a new chapter of the very huge play which we’re all part of.
I wish I knew the answer….

The design is not my best but I hope u feel what I meant by it.

Btw I started posting some photos online lately, it’s a really new thing for me _just like blogging_ here’s the link, hope u check it out and enjoy the experience:
http://screamonly.deviantart.com/

My Very First

2007-02-26T15:24:00.000+04:00

Hey…
This is my first time to post a thing ever… and I mean it
I did have some profiles here and there but nothing about me, just interests and friends, No thought, no ideas no nothing
Even as a little kid; I used to read stories and comics, the fans letters, enjoying them, thinking of write a comment or something;
But that was it…just a punch of thought never gets their chance to get out there!!!
Later at my teen years I had some tries in writing my own novels and thoughts…
it lasted for one month then died young never getting the chance to c the real world.
I don’t know... I think I was more into drawing my thoughts. It was easier and more effecting than writing them
Now I guess I’m more aware of what I want to say and how to say it...
Hope this will last…
One thing left is I’m not that great in English, u’ll may find some _allot actually_ mistakes here and there
Well… just ignore it ;)
Thx to Ramy who gave me the idea to write what I feel and looking for your comments people…
C ya later...